Edward vs. Jacob

☮I've made my decision.☮
❤I know my Edward, and I know my Jacob.❤



•But, unlike Bella, I put God first.
Therefore the struggle isn't really mine!
The Lord will send me the correct one: Edward or Jacob, according to which one of them are able to successfully become a man, stand up for what they believe, listen to their heart, pray for his guidance, have faith in his judgement, and go get who they love!

•Is it you?

•God has his plans for both women & men.
Women- mature faster and know what they want ahead of time.
Men- take a while longer to get in touch with those emotions.

•Whether we, as women, decide to wait on a fate
where the future seems great,
but might end up late--
Is totally up to us.

•Often people miss out on open door opportunities,
by staring so longly at that closed door opportunity.
Let it go. He'll take his time.
You go on, you life your life.

•God first.

Edward. vs. Jacob

Project: Edward[✘] • vs • Jacob[✘]--•-•--The Lord [✔]
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may peace and faith be with you
-Tiary
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Time Machine

“Love can tear you apart, and it can kill you. But at the same time, it can bring you back together."

I can't go back to yesterday-
I was a different person then.

But there's no reason to continue lying to myself.
I long to live through those moments.
One more laugh,
One more smile,
One more hug,
One more memory to spark the flame within me-
To keep me alive.

We all have our time machines.
Some take us back; they're called memories.
Some take us forward, and they're called dreams.

I can't skip to tomorrow-
I am not yet who I want to be.

But there's no reason to continue lying to myself.
I long to see what moments rest ahead.
One more laugh?
One more smile?
One more hug?
Perhaps that one more memory, that sparked a flame within me-
It kept me alive♥

I'm stuck in time.

My heart's desires are being forced to forget, and to wait.

You can't fast forward life, and
You can't turn back the hands of time.

Discovery.

"You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself."

A month ago I ran away.
I abandoned my friends.
I isolated myself from my family.
I separated myself from who I thought I was in love with.
I detached myself from my job.
I ran away, ran away from home.

Passion surrounded me.
Desire took over,
And longing captured my heart.
A dream deferred-
I wouldn't let it whither away,
Nor tear me apart.

I stood in Atlanta, aimlessly wandering around.
I had no purpose.
My mind was without understanding.
My veins lacked a pulse.
And my heart was without a heartbeat.
I was dead.

A broken heart holds little purpose.

I had left all the pieces of me behind.
There was only one thing left to do:
Fast forward, press play, and finally rewind.

Here I stand in Texas.
Sure enough I'm alive!
I now hold a purpose.
But this is no longer home.

This heartbeat, beats for all things different.

On this voyage, I've found what was here all along.
In the search for my heart's garden, I finally found my own.

A month ago, I ran away.

"If you don't get lost, you can never be found."

All these pieces, pieces of me that were gone-
I hold them in my hands, and I pray to be humble...
This time, nothing seems wrong.

What did I discover?
Oh, but many a things!

For years, I've been chasing after the wrong dream.
For years, I've been befriending the wrong friends.
For years, I've been loving the wrong person.
For years, I've been yearning for the wrong family.
For years, I've been working for the wrong job.
For years, I've been calling the wrong place home.

Not a second of this journey, did I ever walk alone-
How did I do it?
You carried me here!
You finally showed me home.

♥The Essence of Love♥

I have not given up on relationships,
Nor have I given up on love.

Realization is the key that I've been struggling to obtain-
I've used the key, unlocked the door, and have gained knowledge.

The Knowledge that I have obtained would have been useful years ago, but
"Experience is something you don't gain until just after you need it."


Why rush into things that are not certain?
I once believed that relationships were a necessity.
I'm not ashamed to say that there was a time when I relied on someone else to determine my happiness.
Those days are no more.

So many people sell themselves short.
So many people fail to get their lives together before they attempt to contribute to someone Else's life.
How can you possibly give your best to someone when you haven't even mastered giving your best to yourself?

I desire to be the best woman that I can be.
I desire to accept, love, understand, listen, and trust,
But before I can give my all to a significant other, I must first learn to accept, love, understand, listen, and trust myself.

I have enough faith in what God has in store for me.
I have enough faith that wherever he wants me to end up in life, I will end up no matter what route I take.
The route I choose, however, is up to me.
I'm determined to choose the route that will allow only the best outcome.

I desire to give selfless love.
I truly want to be all that I can be.

One day I will be the best person that I can possibly be.
One day I will know exactly who I am.
One day I will have completely gained the gift of understanding.
One day I will have gained enough patience to sit back and listen.
One day I will have enough confidence in myself to trust and fully love.
One day I will be humble.

I can't be all that I want to be to someone else until I have fully become comfortable with myself.


Many people look at failed relationships and marriages and ask "What went wrong?"

If everyone were not in such a hurry to seek marriage and that ideal fairytale love, the world might be a bit better.
If everyone focused on working on bettering themselves before trying to work on something that takes the work of two, there might be less breakups, heartbreaks, and divorces.
Imagine what the world would be like if everyone hadn't established things so prematurely.

The essence of real love would shine through all of mankind.
The beauty of love could fully be embraced.
Two people could finally, truly come together as one.

However, the essence of love must start first, within one's own self.
You can not make someone whole if you are not whole yourself.

Don't be so fast to jump into things that are not promised.
You are the only thing that is promised to you.
Love and cherish that first.

"Don't question if you'll ever find the right man or woman, only concentrate on being the right man/woman and he/she will come right on time"
♥

Perseverance.

I once left everything I ever had behind.
Have you ever had life taken away from you?

Liberation was hard to find.
Have you ever had life taken away from you?

Gasping for air, nothing seems fair.
Have you ever had life taken away from you?


When everything aches-
Hearts not whole.

When lies take over-
Broken promises.

When sight dissipates-
Unlit candles.

When confusion sets in-
Brain dead.

Have you ever had life taken from you?



Can you believe in something that you do not see?
How does life move on without a you & me?
Robbed of childhood, forced to grow old-
Thrust into a world so heartless, and terribly cold.
It seems like millions of miles to the nearest town-
Over and over your world spins around.
Emptiness, sorrow, no hope for tomorrow.
You're praying for healing-
You can't gain from stealing.
The struggle to be real,
The pain you feel-
Everything you despise,
Tears in your eyes,
Still you rise.
It's not over, it's not over.
Tread forward- be strong.
Those mistakes can be changed, they won't always stay wrong!
Live for today, what if there isn't a tomorrow-
Why idle away in a life of sorrow?
Change history.
Solve a mystery.
There's hope.

Have you ever had life taken from you?



You never know what's up ahead.
Tread on, soldier.
Move along.

There's always a rainbow after the storm,
When things get harder remember his promise.
Giving up is never an option,
Hang tight, believe, and keep pressing on.

Human.

I'm guilty.
The tears fall as I tell myself that the battle should have already been won.
I remember each silhouette, but it's already too late-
Everything is always easier said than done.

I'm guilty.
I give advice that I struggle to take myself.
I watch you walk away as I sit back and endure the pain-
You read me like an open book off of a shelf, it drives me insane!

I'm guilty.
I move and I can never sit still
Shall I leave or shall I stay?
How do I really feel?

I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.

I'm in love with the things that I can not possess.
Yet my desire to break free forever waits,
When will I confess?

I'm guilty.
My body is free but my heart is in jail.
To release: reverse the process that locked it up-
There's got to be a Heaven somewhere, can you save me from this Hell?

I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.

I constantly stare at the doors that are already closed.
The laughter, the chemistry, and the love-
The things that made us are now decomposed.

I'm guilty.
It takes me forever to let go.
Do I do a great job at shielding it,
Or does it always show?

I'm guilty.
All the fragments of me are parts of you,
But each day I grow farther apart with everything I do.

I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.

For once I've began to move along.
The feelings are hard to differentiate-
Is this my heart's true song?

I'm guilty.
I've started to realize every possibility.
Live, love, laugh...
It's great to be free!

I'm guilty.
The opportunities I encounter help me to forget.
The memories don't matter so much,
Wait, have we even met?

I'm guilty.
The world once scared me, but I've finally won.
Ahhh the scent of freedom-
I'm getting quite used to being done!

I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.
I'm guilty.

The things I once thought I couldn't do, I now know that I can.
Everything is a part of growing-
I'm guilty of being human.

Fictitious!

No one seems to be able to put it into words.
It's the ultimate enemy, the outsider.
How can something be so two-faced and fake?

One second it's filling you with butterflies-
The next it's stabbing you in the heart with all of it's fallacies and lies.

Yet this is one fictitious thing everyone craves.


You struggle to understand the complexity of it all.
How on earth did you allow yourself to fall?

It's difficult to obtain and even harder to maintain.
With every drip of liquid, your life is stained.

A pillow, soaked with tears.
You feel stupid because you were fooled for years.

Yet this is one fictitious thing everyone craves.


The pieces are even harder to pick up.
The memories can't be erased, they'll always be stuck.

Aren't we all better off alone?
There's nothing better than the warmness of your own home.

You can only count on you-
You can't break your own heart.

Forget the fictitious dream and love thyself-
That's truly where it starts.

Then when you're jamming to the rhythm of your own song,
Another fictitious dream will quietly come along.

You fall and fall in the same cycle again.
Oh love, you're such a terrible friend.